Monday, March 2, 2009

The End of Breastfeeding


Well my littlest boy Ryker is 6 weeks away from turning 1 and I have stopped breastfeeding. It wasn't a choice that I liked but I am living with it. He slowed down right around 9 months and than 3 days ago I got super mega sick with strep and I felt paranoid about infecting anyone and so I stopped. I feel such super mega mom guilt. I always plan on breastfeeding my babies until a year because that is what all the pediatricians recommend, so why do I feel like the worst mother in the world for stopping six weeks from that date. It's like I finished the marathon at 25 miles instead of 26. Alli I nursed until she was a year and Porter I nursed until 9 months due to a crazy pediatrician who told me he wasn't gaining enough weight so I had to supplement in a lot of formula and finally he wouldn't nurse anymore. (My Porter is a super chunky monkey now so what the crap do doctors know anyways) I also received the super mom guilt from stopping his nursing at 9 months as well. This is probably my last little babe and that has a factor in my super mom guilt. He just grew up so stinking fast and he is my wiggliest little kid that will not snuggle any other time of the day unless I was nursing him. It's so weird I don't consider myself to be that attached to nursing at all but that little closeness while he is grabbing my nose and looking into my eyes is so sweet. So.... I have resorted to snuggling him up next to me with that bottle and hoping that he will remain my little babe for a little while longer.

5 comments:

Tiff G. said...

I know the feeling. Max is not a cuddler and the only time I felt like I could get cuddle time was while he was nursing! Keep up the cuddle effort and he'll come around. Max has gotten more affectionate the older he's gotten!
YOu're a rock star just for nursing!

Darci said...

I'm coming to the point where weaning (don't you hate that word!) is on my mind too. I know how you feel but just be glad you got to do it as long as you did : )

Andersons said...

Poor girl - I feel your pain! But kudos to you for going those 25 miles...some moms don't even attempt the marathon! And I hope your chunky monkey cuddles a little while longer...it never lasts as long as we want it to!

Allred's said...

Poor Ryker....only teasing, but that picture is so cute.....ps...miss you

Jess said...

You did great! Don't feel guilty. Next time you think you should have nursed a bit longer, check out this link on youtube. You will want to vomit...at least I did:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fxv6R9fUO74